Alone Again.........

I have been trying to pick myself up after FFBF broke up with me out of the blue......

This song keeps playing in my head.

And this Freddie Fender song also:




I know that life will get better for me, but after 3 1/2 years, seemed to be wasted, and the 30+ year friendship lost, it's hard to just get over it. Especially, when there was no warning and a lame excuse for it. I just feel that he is not being totally honest with me. For that matter, I don't think he ever has been. That is what truly hurts along with the non-communication and feelings of betrayal. Friends are supposed to be honest and transparent. Friends are not supposed to hide or retreat when things appear to get a little challenged. You deal with the issues together and move on. It's supposed to make your relationship stronger.

I have been slipping between hurt and anger and wish that these feelings would subside. I have returned to church and that has helped somewhat so far. I have also reached out to friends....THANK GOD! for friends. They have rallied around me.


A little wine, food and a campfire and some honest to goodness good friends do the spirits some good.

THANK YOU! Riel, Mimi and of course, my BFF Janet!!!!!

Meantime I have finished Mr Greenjeans






























Last weekend I planted some Tomato Plants. Roma, Red Grape, Yellow Pear and Patio. Let's see how many I get. I do get good sunlight on my balcony.







Until next time......Knit on!